ima do it

so its been about 4 months since ive posted something on here.... but i think im gonna start posting more regularly... no promises but i think i need an out let and a sort of litmus test to see if im as crazy as i think i am cuz ive been flirting with that line for a while haha... so stay tuned and subscribe because i think i have something in me the world needs.... Its all love 

November 5th.... the day after

So its november 5th 2008 and I'm conflicted.... On one hand I feel elation and hope that I've never felt before because we have a 47 year old african-american by the name of Barack Obama as our president elect... It makes me feel as if all of those times when my parents and grandparents told me I could be the president of the united states (until I "knew" better) is not just bullshit to motivate me... It is actually feasible... We are living history and it makes me feel like america has actually risen to the occasion for once.... That fills me with pride... I am proud to be an American... Even if African doesn't proceed it....

However.... On the other hand...The discriminatory and oppressive Proposition 8 passed which will once again outlaw homosexual marraige.... And what disgusts me more is that this egregious elimination of rights received support from 75 percent of the black vote... And the reason? Religious and personal beliefs.... Predjudice toward the gay community... Fear... Fear of the unknown...

To protect the sanctity of marraige we cannot allow this to happen! What about the 50 percent divorce rate? Hmmm? How about we say if u have been divorced once you cannot be married again... I don't think many of these religious fanatics would support that... It may hit too close to home... Can't protect the sanctity of marraige if it takes away my right... But those fags are godless and sinners so fuck them... Even if I fornicate and lie and cheat and steal... I'm holier than thou....

But I thought as black people, we if anyone would understand and empathize with the cause... Seeing as how the exact same religious nutso argument was used to keep us oppressed as a people... The bible was used to keep us from marrying and enjoying the government benifits that come along with it... Oh and u know what other argument they used? "What about the kids!!! If you allow them to marry the next step is having our kids exposed to this 'black equality' notion"... Do u get the picture!? I mean do u really GET it?

You know what I say? Fuck the sanctity of marraige I say PROTECT THE FUCKIN SANCTITY OF SEPARATION OF CHURCH AND STATE!

I mean when it comes down to it... To me... U may disagree if u wish... Actually I like it when people disagree with me... To me it comes down to the benifits that gay people would receive and we as californians have taken them away... Maybe its only right that we do this since bush has taken away many of our rights... I guess attitude really does reflect leadership..... But to me, It is not right... in fact its damn right repugnant... To discriminate because of some farfetched religious idea.... Keep your religion off of people... You can't force people to believe what u believe... So why legislate against them... I thought that's what this country was all about...

my mind be goin... comment please

I would really like to know what ppl think about these 2 random things I jotted on my blackberry... I just wrote where my mind took me but fuckit

The first...

Think about how many moments have slipped through the cracks of history because they weren't "noteworthy" what does it take to alter the course or even to be noted by history... My story is just as important as george washingtons or voltaires... Not to say that my impact on the larger scheme of things are anywhere near their achievements but every single moment that I or you even exist is important.. Ha... Think about how many regular people history has forgotten... Its enough to make u want to question your existance isn't it? Lol... Sorry I'm in a weird place right now but enjoy

And the second....
Maybe I can understand how white people can not see how something they are doing or saying can have racial undertones or be percieved by individuals or a community as racist... But what truly upsets me is how some people refuse to see the "minorities" point of view... Not to say that everyone should closely monitor their actions and words I just get mad when it is brought to the attention of someone and they flat out deny that our reasoning is valid... The history of the black man in america is a unique one... And maybe a lot of our insecurities stem from the fact that people just don't get us... Maybe I'm dead wrong and only speaking for myself but if you ever think about collective conciousness it is a hell of a thing... We black men have been castrated and made to feel inferior even when we do succeed... And sometimes its frustrating to me how even when people don't empathize with us we don't have the collective fortitude to empatize with them... Humans are so complex... And hilarious in their complexities lol

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Okay so terri sent me a link to a blog that i might be interested in and here is the quote she loved

Ensayn

"Revolution, is in my opinion about evoluition, to re-evolve. It is the internal thought of a person that expresses itself externally. What you think you are, you will be. If you think you are ghetto, you will express this in an external fashion, whether it be a clothing style, tatoos, the way you speak, the way you act. This is the external expression of an internal thought process, on a micro-cosmic level. This same internal thought process expressed by the many becomes a culture, when many dress a certain way, speak a certain way and act a certain way, all based on an internal thought process. So, what outside entity came to a certain group of Black people and produced the thought in them that they are ghetto and this is how ghetto acts? How can one or a group overcome an ailment by pointing at the external factor? Does this exclude the fact that external factors influence the thought process? No. Yet, we are responsible for how we internalize an outside influence. One factor in the external influence on the Black Collective are our own so called “leaders” and “professors” that influence a certain percentage of Black people’s internal thought processes. When a “leader” or “professor” continues to express a slave mentality (I will elaborate in a post what a slave mentality is), then those that believe the “leaders” and “professors” are greater than themselves fall prey to an external influence that deters positive uplifing internal thoughts in the “weaker” collective. Example, on a different level. In order to avoid the flu or a cold one MUST strengthen their OWN immune system, an internal function. When a cold or flu virus attacks a person and overcomes them, then it is the failure of the person to strengthen the INTERNAL IMMUNE SYSTEM. When the immune system is strong an outside influence is of little to no effect. The same is true with the Black collective. The Black Collective must CLEAN OUT and strengthen INTERNALLY to repel negative outside attacks. The more we focus on the outside factor, the white man, the European cultural influence on the Black collective, and racism the “weaker” the collective becomes. And, the Black collective will be defeated by those very same external forces. Therefore, the focus MUST be on cleaning OUR internal thought process, cleaning out the down pressing “leaders” and “professors”, cleaning out our vocabulary, cleaing up the way we dress, act, and feed ourselves, and clean up our dirty ways to eachother. Then and only then can we defeat racism, European cultural influence, the white man and bad Black “leaders” “and Professors”."

to reiterate this is a QUOTE not my words however it does accurately verbalize what has been floating around in my head... i think it is amazing how some people can just seem to reach into your head, grab all of your crazy chaotic thoughts, and be able to word them so elloquently so effortlessly...

this is one of the reasons i love talking to people about real subjects not just music and fashion... i mean there is a time and place for those convos dont get me wrong i love talking music as much as the next man but i think in our generation there is a lack of discussion about real social issues....

take this for instance, i agree with this comment above... it is time for black people to start cleaning up "our own backyard" so to speak... in order for us to be respected as a community we have to get our shit together first....

now i dont know how to do this at all lol these are just some of the things i think about from time to time but i would appreciate feedback in the form of comments in order to assist me and you lol

what i do know is though is that change starts within we cannot let external forces dictate our course any longer...

this one quote from ghandi comes to mind... it may be a missquote so excuse me in advance, but it goes something like "Be the change you want to see"

just a thought

Lately I've been thinking about why I am so interested in history.... Like how is history relevent and why does it seem so boring when someone is trying to teach it to me? Well I've come to the conclusion that school can make even the most interesting subject boring as hell.... However I think history is so interesting to me because I look at it in a different way... History is now... We are living history... The point of history is to learn from in and to improve yourself or be forced to repeat it which is... Sadly... What we are doing... Repeating the same damn shit.... But think about it this way.... I think that it is amazing that even though we are learning about something like say the 60s in a history book while there are people who are alive and well who actually REMEMBER it... Who have EXPERIENCED it... People are living history... So to know yourself you have to know your history... Period... Take now for instance... We are headed for an extremely bad depression\recession... We are on the verge of electing the first black president, we are on the eve of a nuclear holocaust and there are genocides in progress that people seem to be ignoring.... WAKE UP PEOPLE! WE are LIVING history... How will our legacy be recorded in the history books? How will we be remembered? As a people who improved and progressed? As a people who did nothing? As a people who failed to pay attention and are doomed to repeat history? Hmmmm... You have to know where you came from to know where you are headed

whats in a name?

Man... Names are one hell of a thing to live up to... Whether it be the name given to u at birth or the things other people know you as... I mean even though people wouldn't admit it... Many of us live up to the names that others give us.... Its kind of like a self-fulfilling prophecy... We need to be more careful what we call and expect of people because from my experience the line gets pretty blurry between us calling something how it is and the person acting out to live up to expectations... Does a person act like a nigga because he is one or because we call him one? Is that girl a bitch to you because that's how she is or is it because even if u don't say it to her face you're proclaiming her to be a bitch.... Is that girl really a slut or hoe? And who r u to make that call? I am a firm believer that language and words shape our perceptions no matter how u mean the word... That is why I personally chose not to use the word nigga to refer to one of my fellow brothers or sisters of any race... I absolutely refuse to put that burden on someone else and I ask respectfully that u don't place that on my shoulders... With a name like Najee which translates to savior from Arabic, I already have too much to live up to....

Open up

Sooo... lately... due to the intervention of a certain person lol.. ive really realized how closed minded people are... myself included... like.. have you ever thought why society has labled certain things bad and force fed people this over many many many years? what really makes these things "bad"?

like take drugs for instance.... why is it that the drugs that actually provide you with a frame of mind that actually allows you to think critically about things and enhance your discovery of your true self outlawed while alcohol (yes it is a drug) is legal when all it does is impair your judgement and kill your body?

Lately ive really been questioning myself... how can we as people determine if something is bad or if what someone is doing is bad without fully empathizing? you dont know the persons situation... I think we have all had situations when we feel like people are judging us unfairly because they dont understand... why cant we admit that we dont understand other peoples plights and thereby cannot judge them?

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Ephraim wrote:
If colonization is primarily about the colonizers extracting resources from the colonized. It seems to me that cultural (mis)appropriation is simply what happens when all the material and human resources have been used up or rendered unprofitable. The colonial powers or their descendants (corporations) turn to cultural resources instead. And given that humans seems to be limitlessly creative, even under the most oppressive circumstances, that’s probably a more sustainable option.
Posted 18 Sep 2008 at 9:43 am



this comment on a post about cultural appropriation really made me think... like... have you ever thought that even thought the way so many people are exploited and oppressed here in america... whether its for labor or "borrowing" from culures to provide entertainment and other things for mainstream white america all while making a profit... i.e. record companies and clothing companies.... just thought it was an interesting insight and wanted ppl to draw their own conclusions from it....

oh i almost forgot

im also thinking about teaching... maybe english.... thoughts? concerns? feedback please lol....

sheesh

okay so i think its really time for me to start writing on this damn thing again... but im also thinking about opening up.. you know... letting poeple post their own stuff.... things that we can discuss.... cuz im at a point in my life that i want to know what others are thinking.... so if youre interested.... let me know.. oh and i also have to figure out how to do it lol

Quotes!!

soooo my quotes are back i hope they can open your minds and make you think.. theyre just quotes im feeling right now... i dont know if ill post em every week anymore probably just whenever i run across 1 or 6 that i like...

"Peace does not mean to be in a place where there is no noise, trouble, or hard work.Peace means to be in the midst of all those things and still be calm in your heart."--- Marcel Morin


"I'm not going to put lipstick on a caterpillar and call it a butterfly."--- Bolton, on the weak attempts to revamp the United Nations, March 15, 2006.


"I think prayer is asking for what you think you don't already have and admitting that youdon't trust your own soul and the soul of another. And ultimately you don't trust in the Sourcethat whatever happens IS the right thing - no matter how it might look on the surface."--- E. Nora H. Amrani


"I searched for God and found only myself. I searched for myself and found only God" --- Sufi proverb

Hmmm looking back at these quotes.... seems like my mind and soul are in a weird place right now lol.......... ENJOY

WTF!!

man im so mad.. i got 200 out of 250 on a damn essay test... grrr lol... jk haha ill take that B

oh yeah...

ohh i almost forgot... tonight kat williams at the gibson and i have 2 tickets!!! yeaaaaaahhhh boy! lol

last night

oh man... last night was the first time i partied in a longgggg time... the party was whack but me and my friends were tipsy and feelin ourselves... i mean we were like the onnnly people in the whole party dancing haha... fun times... it was sooo bad that at one point this old dude got on the mic and was trying to convince the dudes to go and talk to the girls and dance with em... he was like "dont be afraid cuz theyre beautiful... god made em beautiful for a reason... so just take one by the hand and show her..." and when he was finishing his speech love and happiness by al green started playing lmfao!!!

so shoutouts to those who made that party fun for me haha
kasey, holly, heather, brittany, jordan, jonathan, noah, epatty... and those 2 random hispanic girls who danced hard and thought they worked me haha

and somebody owes me a piggy back ride!!!!!!!!

the valley boys party in a nutshell... tight ass mansion.. a hummer that said hot latinas... drinks flowing... but only 10 ppl dancing...

Raw Ham doin big things

So my friend raheem is a freelance producer and he just did this short thing about flo ridas first BET awards... i dont give a shit about flo rida but raw ham is doin his thing.... check out his work.. maybe you can learn a thing or 2 (taylor hahaha)

http://www.bet.com/Specials/BETAwards08/betawards-videos/beta_video_myfirstbetawardsflorida.htm

just my thoughts

hmmm... so ive been thinking about what my first post back should be... i wanted it to be something interesting and what not but i just figured hey... its my shit i can write about whatever i want lol... so im gonna ummm vent my thoughts and feelings about a current event thats been all over the news for some reason or another for the past umm week and a half or so.... california will now legallly recognize gay marraiges...


man i feel like its about damn time.... i think that the government should do a lot of things but prohibiting the union of two people before the law is not one of them..... it really pisses me off because you have these hypocritical religious nuts (who only seem to get religious when theres either gay people or abortions are brought up for some reason hmmmm) who are all up in arms because now gay people can be married in california...

woooo big whoop...

i want to ask u a question mr and mrs devout christian... how are two gay people getting married going to affect you or society negatively? i mean.. what harm can come from there being more stable families in america that can help our declining economy or maybe just maybe be able to adopt the many orphans in the country... i mean... how can the benifits a spouse will recieve when their significan other dies.. or less orphans on the streets... or people actually reconizing the love that two PEOPLE share possibly evoke a negative response from you? what if someone told you you couldnt marry who you want because its not right in the eyes of god? wtf

oh and about this "preserving the sanctity of marraige" crap..... for 1 marraige is a legal contract confirming the union of two people before the law and government... people chooooose to make it religious... and if you really want to preserve its sanctity... please please please try something practical like ummm i dunno sayyy NOT CHEATING ON YOUR SPOUSE.... hmm or possibly NOT GETTING DIVORCES.....you never know.. these things may help....

but as far as this being a sin and an abomination before god... dont even come at me with that crap... whatever happened to seperation between church and state? oh and if you read the bible you would know that each sin is weighted equally before the eyes of god.... so all of you lying, fornicating, coveting, disrespectful americans are going to be in hell right next to your gay married couple neighbors if you believe in that sort of thing

let he who is without sin cast the first stone..... but if you live in a glass house u probably shouldnt cast it ;)

Okay im back

finally im back in the blog world... my life has been kinda uhhhh lets say hectic for a while... ive been trying to pass my classes so i can get into a damn school and leave smc behind sheesh.... lol... but i did pass the remainder of my classes... so soon hopefully ill resume posting interesting shit... if its not interesting.... oh well.. its just my thoughts ladies and gentlemen lol.... so.. catch u soon

lmao

at the end of the entry i said ill "keep you posted" lmfao.. get it? blog... posted... haha... well its funny to me

ehh

ehhh so i failed the test... i took it pretty hard i guess but a few people made me feel better :) so what i did was go to the schools i was planning on going to and i talked to admissions.... long beach gave me a flat out no from the other side of a window... bastards.... but dominguez was more personal and sensitive to my case... some lady is reviewing my transcripts and said she will help me sooooo hopefully she delivers some good news for me.... ill keep you posted

Wish me luck!!!

so yesterday i took one of the biggest tests of my college career... for the first fifteen weeks of school ive been failing my stats class pretty badly... i need this class soooo bad because if i fail none of the schools i applied to will accept me unfortunately.... then ima be at punk ass SMC for yet another semester which i dont want... smc is a great institution and what not... but im ready to move on already.... soooo to make a short story long... i need to get at least a 75 on this test to have a chance at passing the class.... wish me luck